Sometimes in the midst of extremely difficult circumstances we get a feeling that God isn't listening to our prayers and our cries to Him. Of course we know that this isn't true, but it makes you wonder why He is not answering your prayer the way you want it to be answered.
For instance, this last week my youngest son, Benjamin, who is 7 months old today, has not been content at all to sleep in his crib at night. The only time he is content and able to sleep is in our arms and a lot of times it is only in our arms when we are sitting up, so it's not like we can always lay down with him. Over the last 7 nights sleep my wife and I have probably got a total of about 3 hours sleep each per night and even this sleep is not restful because it comes in pockets of half and hour to an hour at a time until Ben wakes up crying again. We've tried everything we can think of to help him. He's developed a severe rash on his forehead and behind his ears which irritate him with constant itches. We've put cream on it, flax oil on it, given him camomilla drops, and have him sleeping on a magnetic mat (which is supposed to help balance out the ions in your body and help you to feel less pain and be relaxed). We aren't sure what's caused it. The doctors tell me it's Exema (or however you spell it) which makes sense because I have Exema too and it's a genetic thing. Anyway, needless to say that my wife and I are extremely tired and irritable due to this challenging time.
We pray over and over every night for God to allow Ben to relax so that he could get sleep and we could get sleep. Time and time again we cry out to God and ask that He help us, but God never seems to answer our prayer. Why?
Maybe God is trying to teach us a lesson. What is the lesson that He wants us to learn? Maybe to pray without ceasing, knowing that God is still there. Maybe He wants to see how much faith we have in Him to see us through. Maybe He wants to teach us that even through our challenges, we still have a very fortunate situation because our children don't have any major illness that they will battle until they die (we are very blessed in that way). I don't know exactly what God is trying to teach us, but I do know that even though He doesn't feel like He's working in our situation, He is in complete control.
We just have to keep trusting in Him for strength to get through, knowing that He always know's what's best for us in the long run.
Please keep us in your prayers as this is a challenging time for us. Thank you,
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You are in my thoughts and prayers my son. I hope Ben will have some peace tonight and that you and Jen can have some rest.
Is the rash getting better? It almost sounds like it could be something else or something that continues to be irritating as opposed to something he reacted to while you were here.
Hang in there you guys. Sometimes we expect miracles when we are simply learning patience and perseverance. Rest assured, this time will pass. Hopefully, sooner rather than later.
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